I. Love
 1.
 Gyorgy Marinov hides his face in his right hand, and with his left      taps the ash from his cigarette onto the ground, which in the      village of Dryanovets is a deep-brown color that passes here and      there into black. We're sitting outside his house, which is coated      in gray plaster. Marinov is a little over seventy, but he's not      bent double yet, although in Dryanovets, a village in northern      Bulgaria inhabited mainly by Gypsies, very few men live to his      age.
 It's not much better for the women either. There's a death notice      pinned to the door frame of Marinov's house with a picture of a      woman only a little younger than he is. It's his wife-she died      last year.
 If you go through that door, passing a cart, a mule, and a heap of      junk along the way, you come to a dirt floor. In the middle of the      room there's a metal pole stuck into the ground. A female bear      called Vela spent almost twenty years tied to it.
 "I loved her as if she were my own daughter," says Marinov, as he      casts his mind back to those mornings on the Black Sea when he and      Vela, dependent on each other, pointed their noses in the      direction of the water, had a quick bite of bread, and then set      off to work along the road as the asphalt rapidly heated up. And      those memories make him melt, just as the sunshine would melt the      asphalt in those days, and he forgets about his cigarette until      the lighted tip starts to burn his fingers; then he tosses the      butt onto the brown-and-black earth, and he's back in Dryanovets,      outside his gray house with the death notice pinned to the door      frame.
 "As God is my witness, I loved her as if she were human," he says,      shaking his head. "I loved her like one of my immediate family.      She always had more than enough bread. The best alcohol.      Strawberries. Chocolate. Candy bars. I'd have carried her on my      back if I only could. So if you say I beat her, or that she had a      bad time with me, you're lying."
 2.
 Vela first appeared at the Marinovs' house at the beginning of the      gloomy 1990s, when Communism collapsed, and in its wake the      collective farms, known in Bulgaria as TKZS-trudovo kooperativno      zemedelsko stopanstvo, or "labor cooperative farms"-began to go      under. "I was a tractor driver at the TKZS in Dryanovets. I drove      a Belarus tractor and I loved my job," says Marinov. "If I could      have, I'd have worked at the collective farm to the end of my      days. Nice people. The work was tough sometimes, but it was in the      open air. We never lacked a thing."
 But in 1991 the TKZS began to slow down. The manager called      Marinov in and told him that under capitalism a tractor driver      must not only drive a tractor but also help with the cows, and the      sowing, and the harvest. Marinov had helped people to do other      jobs on very many occasions anyway, so he couldn't see any      problem. The manager replied that he understood all that, but that      even if his tractor drivers were multifunctional, he couldn't keep      twelve of them on under capitalism-because until then there had      been twelve at the TKZS in Dryanovets. At most, he could keep      three. Marinov was made redundant.
 "I was given three months' pay in advance-then that was it,      good-bye," he recalls, and adds: "If you go out of my house, walk      a short way to the right, and stand on the hillock, you'll see      what's left of our collective farm. It was a beautiful farm, three      hundred cows, a thousand acres, extremely well run! Most of the      people working there were Gypsies, because the work was too stinky      for Bulgarians. Now it has all fallen through, and instead of      working, the Gypsies sit around unemployed. But the milk they sell      in the market at Razgrad is German. Clearly it's worth it for the      Germans to have big farms but not for the Bulgarians."
 In 1991 Marinov had to ask himself the basic question that every      redundant worker has to face: "What else am I capable of doing?"
 "In my case the answer was simple," he says. "I knew how to train      bears to dance."
 His father and grandfather were bear keepers, and his brother,      Stefan, had kept bears ever since leaving school. "I was the only      one in the family who'd gone to work at the collective farm," says      Marinov. "I wanted to try another life, because I already knew      about bears. Lots of bear keepers got jobs at the farm, as I did.      But I grew up around bears. I knew all the songs, all the tricks,      all the stories. I use to bottle-feed my father's two bears by      hand. When my son was born, he and the bears were kept together.      There were plenty of times when I got it wrong-my baby drank from      the bear's bottle, and the bear from his. So when they fired me      from the collective farm, there was one thing I knew for sure: if      I wanted to go on living, I had to find a bear as fast as      possible. Without a bear, I wouldn't survive a year.
 "How did I find one? Wait, let me light another cigarette and then      I'll tell you the whole story."
 3.
 "I went to the Kormisosh nature reserve to get a bear. It's a      well-known hunting ground; apparently Brezhnev forgave our      Communists a billion leva of debt in exchange for taking him      hunting there. So I was told by a guy who worked at Kormisosh for      forty years, but I don't know if it's true.
 "First I had to go to Sofia, to the ministry responsible for the      forests, because I had a friend there from school. Thanks to him,      I got a voucher for a bear, authorizing me to buy one at      Kormisosh, so from Sofia I went straight to the reserve. They knew      of me there by hearsay, because my brother, Stefan, had been to      them in the past with other bear keepers, and in those days he'd      been a real star. He used to perform at a very expensive      restaurant on the Black Sea, where the top Communist Party leaders      used to go. He was on television several times. Lots of people all      over Bulgaria would recognize him.
 "Stefan got his bear from a zoo in Sofia. A drunken soldier had      broken into the bear enclosure, and the mother happened to have      cubs at the time, so she attacked him and killed him on the spot.      They had to euthanize her, as they always do if a zoo animal kills      someone. Stefan heard about it and went to buy one of the cubs.
 "At the restaurant show, first came some girls who danced on hot      coals, and then he was on. He'd start by wrestling with the bear      and end with the bear massaging the restaurant manager's back.
 "Then a long line of people would form, to have the bear massage      them too. My brother earned pretty good money that way. Of course      he had to share it with the manager, but there was enough for both      of them.
 "So I went to Kormisosh. The forester asked me to pass on his      greetings to my brother, and then they brought out the little      bear. She was a few months old. They're best like that, because      they're not too attached to their mothers yet-they can still      change keepers without making a fuss. If you take an older bear      away from its mother, it can starve itself to death.
 "So she's looking at me. And I'm looking at her. I'm thinking,      'Will she come to me or not?' I kneel down, hold out my hand, and      call, 'Come here, little one.' She doesn't move, just gazes at me,      and her eyes are like two black coals. You'd fall in love with      those eyes-I tell you.
 "I took a piece of bread out of my pocket, put it in the cage, and      waited for her to go inside. Again she looked at me. She hesitated      for a moment, but then she went in. 'Now you're mine,' I thought,      'for better or worse.' Because I was fully aware that a bear can      live with someone for thirty years. That's half a lifetime!
 "I paid thirty-five hundred leva for her, but I didn't regret a      single penny. She went straight to my heart at once. That money      was my payoff from the collective farm, plus a little more that      I'd borrowed. In those days you could buy a Moskvich car for about      four thousand.
 "But I couldn't afford a Moskvich as well, so I went part of the      way home with the cub by bus, which was an immediate pleasure,      because all the children were interested in my bear and wanted to      pet her. I took it as a good sign. And it showed I'd gotten a      really great bear, friendly and lovable. And then I thought, 'Your      name will be Valentina. You're a beautiful bear, and that's a      beautiful name, just right for you.' And it stuck. Valentina, or      Vela for short.
 "Then we had to transfer to a train, and Vela traveled in the      luggage compartment. The conductor didn't want a ticket for her;      he just asked me to let him pet her. Of course I did. But I also      insisted on paying for a ticket. That's what I'm like-if you owe      something, you have to pay, and that's final. I always used to buy      Vela a ticket, like for an adult person, without any discount for      petting her. There was just one occasion when the conductor      insisted. He said someone in his family was in the hospital, and      he regarded the bear as a good sign, as good luck for that person.      I could see it mattered to him, so that one time I didn't pay up."
 4.
 "The biggest problem I had was with my wife. Because I went to      Kormisosh without telling her. And when I suddenly appeared at the      front door with a bear, she went crazy.
 "'Are you out of your mind? What sort of a life are we going to      have?' she screamed, and came at me with her fists flying. I gave      in to her, and left the house.
 "I'd always done my best to live in harmony with my wife, and I      can't say I wasn't upset at her for screaming like that, but I did      understand her to some extent. The life of a bear keeper isn't      easy. Of course, he can earn a living. You see this house? It's      still standing thanks to our Valentina. On a good day at the      seaside I earned more than I did in a whole month at the      collective farm.
 "But it's a job that has its price. You have be on the alert the      whole time to make sure the bear doesn't go wild and harm you-Vela      was with us for twenty years, but you could never drop your guard      for an instant. You don't know when your bear's instincts might      awaken. A man I know in the next village, Ivan Mitev, had had his      bear for fifteen years. He bought her at the circus, so you might      think he'd never have any trouble with her-her mother and      grandmother had never known freedom, so her instincts should have      been well suppressed. Until one day Ivan failed to tie her up      properly, and she broke loose, killed three hens, and ate them.      How she did it, I don't know. Vela sometimes had hens flapping      around her head while she slept, but it never occurred to her to      eat them. But it happened with Mitev's bear. Once her instincts      had awoken, she started attacking people-the keeper, his wife, and      their children. She kept trying to bite them. Suddenly they had a      major problem. Unfortunately, a bear has no sense of gratitude and      won't remember that you've fed it corn and potatoes for the past      fifteen years. If it goes wild, it'll start to bite.
 "On top of that, bear keepers aren't exactly welcome among people.      We're not respected. I had a problem with this for ages, and I      never, ever performed with Vela either here, in Dryanovets, or in      the neighboring villages. Only when I reached Shumen, and that's      almost forty miles away from us, would I take out my gadulka, or      fiddle, and start to work.
 "So when I brought the little bear cub home, my wife knew      perfectly well how it would all end. Women are very wise, and the      moment she saw that shaggy little creature she also saw the people      who'd laugh at us, the nights we'd spend out in the rain, and us      trailing from yard to yard in the hope that someone would toss us      a few pennies.
 "But I knew my dearly departed wife, as well. And I knew that if I      put up with her outburst of anger, she'd soon come to love the      bear like her own child.
 "I wasn't mistaken. By the time the first winter came, she was      urging me to make Vela a shelter as soon as possible or the animal      would freeze. And whenever it rained, she took an umbrella and ran      to the tree where Vela was tied up, to make sure the little bear      didn't get wet. If she could have, she'd have kept her in the      house, the way some city folk keep dogs."
 5.
 "When I brought the cub here, the worst trouble I had was from a      major in the militia-or had it been renamed the police by then? I      can't remember-those changes happened so quickly that no one could      keep up with them. When he found out I had a bear cub, he came and      said, 'Citizen Marinov, I've heard you're keeping a bear at your      place. I'll give you seven days to get rid of it.'
 "I tried arguing, saying, 'But Mr. Major, what do you mean? I      bought it legally. I have a receipt from the Kormisosh park.      Anyway, thanks to your economic transformation they've taken away      my job, so let me do something else!'
 "But the major refused to listen. 'You've got seven days,' he      said. 'And that's my last word on the matter, Citizen Marinov.'
 "It was suspicious, because there were six other bears in our      village at the time, including the one belonging to my brother,      Stefan. So why was he picking on me? I don't know. Maybe he'd had      enough of the bears. Or maybe he wanted a bribe. I didn't bother      to ask. It was all legally aboveboard, so there was no reason for      me to give him anything. I went to Shumen, to see the people who      represent the Ministry of Culture, and I asked them to call Sofia      at my expense, and there they confirmed that I had all the      necessary documents. You couldn't keep a bear illegally. A vet had      to examine it, and the Ministry of Culture had to confirm that my      program would be of high artistic quality. The ministry confirmed      that I had all the papers, in Razgrad they issued me an extra bit      of paper, and the militia major was told to leave me in peace.								
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