Chapter 1
Reverberation, ReverberationAGE I
The Body
I stare out at the Grand Canyon’s Precambrian rock, searching for the oldest way to know a country. Red cliffs thrust into vanishing violets. Some borrow the blue of the sky. This canyon aches inside me. My wife, Stephanie, my best friend Camille—her belly at the end of its first trimester—Andrey, her Belarusian husband, and I have come to see the rarest thing of all: a beginning. Have come in search of a reminder that beyond these bodies, we are rock, river, gully. Though, too, we are a fee we’ve paid the U.S. government to access once-sovereign sites of emergence for the Hualapai, Havsuw ’Baaja, Hopi, Yavapai-Apache, Diné, Zuni, and Paiute Nations—as a small plaque, designed to be barely visible in our minds, tells us.
Across their kidnapped landscape, white cliffrose and pink Apache plume bloom. Moss, green and purplish shrubs patch the expanse. Shale, sand, and limestone glimmer in the March sun. The Grand Canyon is something both brand-new and familiar, like the hues my father used in the children’s books he illustrated me and my sister, Jamila, into—it’s like holding each of my nephews for the very first time. Above, the clouds ink up every color. I consider the status of my back. It’s been a decade of chiropractors, cortisol shots, these invisible bricks the size of my country that live at my back, neck, and shoulders. Pain has lived in me, with me so long, I no longer name it.
Unlike our white partners, Camille and I have never been to this part of America before. This 1,902-square-mile canyon stretching out in front of us is so beautiful it veers on incomprehensible. Called Ongtupqa by the Hopi, Bidááʼ Haʼaztʼiʼ Tsékooh by the Diné, and Wi:kaʼi:la by the Yavapai, the white colonizers first referred to it as “The Great Unknown.” They drew it as a literal blank spot on their maps, but my father would paint this scene blue-violet, paint it into the in-betweens of color to remind me that value, a gradient between light and dark, is an interpretation by the hand of the creator.
My father would say: They can’t even look over their shoulders and find a hero. A man aging more and more into non sequiturs, I know he means truth, legacy, and white people. He means beginnings and us. When my father speaks of beginnings, he means this nation is a dangerous place to be stuck. A bad beginning, he’s warned me, can make you mistake treading water for swimming. It can be the wrong end of a stick, while the right beginning can be a rescue.
Gazing out at one origin, I find it impossible not to consider the end of mine. My father came home on his lunch break to catch my mother in his arms as she died from a single massive stroke. Her brain burst like a colossal star. I was a sophomore in college. Now, she’s been gone so long, is all that’s left of her, her propagation? Me, my sister, the grandchildren she loves but will never meet or know.
I don’t see the capital of the Havasupai Indian Reservation, the village of Supai, at the base of the canyon. I’m too far away to see the fresh footprints on their ancestral footpaths. Still, I know, like all Indigenous peoples, the Havsuw ’Baaja have to fight for their ancestral lands inside the young laws of illegitimate governments. They have had to take “beginnings” to court, despite having called the base of the canyon home since AD 1300. For both Native and Black folks, white America tries to legislate the start of our narratives, overwriting our beginnings with “manifest destiny,” smiling slaves, mascots, in classrooms—on TV, in history and children’s books—and through marginalizing tactics like redlining, censorship, and incarceration and policing. This need to guard our origin stories I recognize as one of the many things our people have in common.
“We didn’t ask to be put on a reservation . . . [this] was imposed on us,” Coleen Kaska, a former Havasupai tribal council member, tells a reporter in 2017, reminding me of the 1964 Malcolm that so many of the Black adults of my childhood loved to shout: “We didn’t land on Plymouth Rock! The rock was landed on us!”
Kaska, whose parents taught her that her duty was “to grow up and pursue the lands that we have lost.”
But I won’t read Kaska’s words until months later when I finally google this place I’ve come to so easily, not knowing much of anything about it. For now, from our vantage point, it is easy to assume that there is no one here but us.
The Havsuw ’Baaja are “the Blue Creek people,” named the Havasupai tribe by the federal government. They are the first people documented in North America, more than twenty thousand years ago, and their language is suspected to be the first spoken in the Americas. This land—Red Butte, “mountain of the clenched fist”—which they have occupied for centuries, is one of their most sacred spaces. In the Havsuw ’Baaja people’s creation story of themselves and humankind, they were birthed from a tributary of the Grand Canyon. The first people, they are its protectors and stewards.
As history goes, the U.S. government stole most of the Havsuw ’Baaja’s land, restricting them, in 1882, to a 518-acre reservation, and devastating an existence which heavily relied on its ecosystems. Today, the tribe lives at the canyon’s base year-round, though before the land theft it was their summer home, and they migrated to the higher plateaus in the winter.
“My tribe has lost over 500 million acres, which includes all the plateau lands up here and Grand Canyon National Park. We were told that we could not live there anymore,” Kaska told the conservation nonprofit Grand Canyon Trust in 2019 for their oral history project. Not until 1975 did the Havsuw ’Baaja succeed in suing the federal government for the return of 185,000 acres.
In me and Jamila, my mother’s language didn’t survive the journey over the Atlantic, but an astonishing 95 percent of the tribe speak dialects of their Yuman tongue, making it the only Native language spoken by almost its entire population. I’m learning how cunningly, how quickly—and how frequently—stolen beginnings can be discarded or renamed “lost” inside something as vast as empire. Whether we want to know it or not, when we say “the Grand Canyon,” we are always speaking of the Havsuw ’Baaja. These days, the Havsuw ’Baaja refer to the Grand Canyon as Wambodajwogo—“where the train stops.”
The village of Supai is a tourist hot spot. It holds a helicopter landing pad, a tourist office, a small museum, rodeo grounds, and a café. With a population of around 450, Supai has a small elementary school of approximately seventy K-through-sixth-graders. Supai’s only school, it opened in 1895 before being shuttered by the U.S. government in 1976.
In 1982, the tribe reopened what is still known today as Havasupai Elementary. After twenty years—and due to a lack of financial and administrative support from the Bureau of Indian Affairs (BIA)—the tribe, denied resources, couldn’t meet the standards of the 2001 No Child Left Behind Act—legislation that would do just that: leave behind poor students, students with disabilities, and due to systemic racism in schools, students of color. The tribe’s hand forced, control of the school was transferred to the Bureau of Indian Education (BIE).
Because the federal government does not provide Supai the funding or resources for a high school, parents must choose between moving their families away from their homes or boarding their children out to neighboring areas for semesters at a time, or even years. As of 2017, none of the teachers are from the reservation. Instead, like tourists, they fly in and out of Supai by helicopter during the school week.
As a child attending an almost-all-white, all-girls Catholic school, I’d spent most of fourth grade in libraries obsessively reading books about Native-assimilation schools. Page after page, I read about Native children who’d been kidnapped from their communities, held hostage in classrooms where they were punished for their language, their culture, their sovereignty, their clothing, their hair, their home—all that gave color to their Black Periods.
In those books about Native-assimilation schools, it was the white people—the teachers, the nuns—and their structures that all felt so familiar. How their tenderness could vanish in response to my skin. How their faces could betray a distaste that left a cold stone in my belly. In those library books, I recognized that America also responded to me as less of a someone. I was a something that needed to be watched, needed correction.
Forty-three hundred feet below us, the Colorado River rushes like frothy tap water, or like time, this measure well understood by Indigenous peoples, Black folks, and geologists. If my mother were still alive, she’d only be sixty-eight years old, a reminder that, after being gone seventeen years, she could still be so young. But she is an apparition that, in the past, my grief rarely allowed me to call to the present.
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